what is your song?

I went to a Humanity's Team concert named "Be the Change" yesterday. It was simply amazing. There was a great variety of music and poetry, and all the performers ROCKED. The music just touched me so much and made me so happy to be part of this group of people. I can't wait to get the compilation CD they put together, which is still being made.

Something one of the singers said really got me thinking; that is, every one of us has a song of our own, and what is your song? I've never heard anyone describe self-expression in those terms, but it got me engaged in thinking about what my song is. And, to tell myself the truth, I'm not singing it. In fact, I don't really know what it is. What I do know is that I know what it feels like, because I get this feeling in my chest whenever I think about it, and I know that when I see it I will immediately recognize it.

frustration is good

As some of you may or may not know, I am as of right now pretty frustrated in my work as a self-employed person. Mostly because I still have little confidence in my people skills, and I get scared and talk myself into procrastinating or just not doing anything. However, listening to Conversations with God book 1 these past couple of days in the car has really helped the commute and my mindset. Just today I listened to a passage about monitoring your thoughts. That is, my thoughts, words, and actions create my reality, and what I need to do is have an image of the highest version of the highest vision of myself, and monitor my thoughts to make sure they are always in alignment with that image. Now, I know this already, I just haven't been doing it on a regular basis and instead letting fear take over whenever I'm too scared to talk to someone.

The other thing I am reminded of is that my experience of something is what I say it is, and that "what you resist persists, what you look at disappears." Sure, I am frustrated and wish this being your own boss thing could be easier sometimes, but this frustration and difficulty allows me to really appreciate my success in the future, just as I am proud of myself for having learned how to drive stick even though it was painfully frustrating in the learning stage. If Primerica were easy, I wouldn't value my success as much as I would've otherwise, just as I never really valued my A's in school because they were never that diffcult to get, and even in college they were challenging intellectually but never emotionally.

I also remembered that every new beginning only happens once in a lifetime. Once I pass through this, it will never come again (in this life anyway)! Therefore I give thanks for this time in my life, and for all other moments of frustration, which I love, love, love because they make my successes sweet and ecstatic.

And so it is.

team america: world police

I first thought this movie was kind of cheesy when I first saw a commercial for it, but after I realized it was produced by Trey Parker and Matt Stone, I just had see it. And I have to say, they didn't disappoint. The plot was suitably sarcastic and provoking, and the songs (all played in the background except one) are just rolling-on-the-floor hilarious. Here's a transcript of the lyrics.

What I really like about Parker and Stone is that they make fun of everybody equally, so no one feels left out and no one can really say which side they're on.

do not vote on november 2, 2004!

Not Voting and Proud

I'm voting, but I wanted to post this just to be contrary.

ahnold

This evening I received a call from Arnold Schwarzenegger. Yep. I picked up the phone, and after a second his voice on the other side said, "hello, this is governor Arnold Schwarzenegger, urging you to vote no on proposition 72--" And I hung up after that, because it was freaky. I've received recorded calls before, but this was freakier than most.